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Dream Job No. 1: A Librarian 12/01/2018

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The easiest job for me to do is a librarian.
I love to surround myself with books.
It is my dream to have my own three story private library.
Imagine having the library as your work place, with all those books without having the need to spend some money.
I would be excited to go to work every day.
I can read a lot, books with various topics while waiting for people who want to borrow books.

I love to organize books.
Back in high school, I organized the books in the school library many times even though no one asked me to. Seeing books line up according to their topics gave me a sense of relief.

I also love to put plastic on books to make them neat and there’s a sense of satisfaction I can feel to be able to protect the books.
Once I borrowed a book and I changed the old cover so it could look better.
Why did I bother when it was not even my book? I don’t know but I care.

I am also good with keeping the records, either manually or computerized.
Have trouble finding the books? I could help by finding it on the computer or I could easily show you where because I remember things well and I’m good with locations.

You want me to put the register numbers on the book side? No problem.
Being the type of person I am, you would probably find me with a ruler so I could put the numbers in the exact same position for each book. So the books will line up nicely in the book shelf with linear register numbers.

Those will be simple happiness that I get to have every day.
There’s no stress, no worry.

Is there a librarian who hates her job?
Why don’t you switch job with me? I’d be more than happy to do that.



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The Rulebreaker 11/01/2018

Filed under: Poems — hifni1985 @ 12:31 am
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I was strict,
They told me, you don’t need to be so strict.
That it’s okay to break some rules.

I broke some rules,
Then they said, why are you not following the rules?

So tell me,
Which rules are okay to be broken, which rules are not?

Why are some rules applied to some people, but not to some others?
Who decides so?

Please tell me.
Because I am so confused.
Is it true rules are made to be broken?
Why should there be rules in the first place?

Is it always like this when it’s rule made by human?
Easily break,
Easily falter,
Easily bent.

That’s why I love God’s rules,
Because the rules and consequences are clear.
Because the rules are the same for every humans.


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TOP 10 POSTS IN 2017 01/01/2018

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My Comprehensive Personality Profile 25/12/2017

Filed under: Personality — hifni1985 @ 12:43 am
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Sometimes I wonder how some personality profile could define me so close. I’ve done a lot of personality profiling through all means. Of course human’s characters are fluid, means they could change. But still, I am amazed every time I could nod and say “yes, yes, this is right.” This one result here is quite long, with similar things are explained several times in different ways. I’m just keeping this to myself as I think no one but me will ever read this until finish, LOL.

My Comprehensive Personality Profile

You have a feet-on-the-ground and eye-on-the-prize. You have a realistic, grounded approach to life that can be seen no matter how dreamy you are. You know how to do things, and to get things done. But you can naturally turn your back on things you deem too frivolous. You are very much concerned with things that are worthwhile–and that includes your own life. You want to do and be something worthwhile. You need to feel useful and effective in the real world in order to be satisfied with your life.

You like to pare things down, and take pleasure in the simple things in life. You can see into the future, and plan for it. You don’t mind taking things slowly, but you absolutely aim to get to the top of the mountain in life! You make your way steadily and sure-footedly; and your strength and singleness of purpose are admirable.

You can sometimes be rather lonely person, although you rarely let it show. You are often a little reserved–even standoffish. This is generally because you value all things practical, and you seldom wear your emotions on your sleeve. You are surely the most resourceful. To some, you come across as unimaginative, but you actually can be enormously creative when it comes to the material world. You are generally very capable person with a strong sense of tradition and responsibility.

You have mastered the art of making people laugh. Your sense of humor can be of the deadpan variety: you are generally excellent at keeping a straight face. Your humor can be bitingly sarcastic, too. You are not known for taking too many risks in life. You value the beaten track and things “tried and true”. But this is not to say you are stick-in-the-muds – you just simply value the hard work laid down by those who’ve been around before you. People turn to you for help when they need to really get things done. Because you have practical advice and you’ll help them organize and manage their life a little better. You are generally good with your “word”, dependable, and rather loyal person.

You are honest, reserved, circumspect, honorable and strong-willed. Quietly ambitious within the realms of the possible, you like and take on responsibility. You can work in the social domain.

Weaknesses: a sometimes bitter and mistrustful mind.

You need activity and a change of scenery often, or you feel restless. You take pride in your mental agility and your friendships. You are able to adapt quite easily to whatever environment you’re in. There is a strong need to communicate your knowledge to others and to learn. Your curiosity is endless. Take pride in your intellectual or communicative abilities without feeling the need to lord it over others or to always be “in the know”. You have a solid grasp of facts. You have a strong influence on your peers.

Social relationships are extremely important to you. You are generally charming with an easy-going manner. It is generally quite important to you that you are personally popular, to come across in a pleasant way, and to be liked and appreciated. Sometimes, vanity is part of the package. You do your best to seek peace and harmony. You are diplomatic and a veritable expert at smoothing over (and sometimes glossing over) problems. You are openhanded with others, tolerant and accepting. You have a fine eye for style and enjoy pleasing surroundings. You generally dress well and enjoy a certain amount of luxury. You are gracious, romantic, and sometimes romantically impulsive. You tend to rely on the power of attraction to bring people to you, rather than aggressively pursuing love interests. There is some vanity involved here–you are most attracted to people who express interest in you, or who respond well to your charms! You are not the type of person who overtly pursues people who appear to be indifferent to you. You are not competitive in the aggressive sense of the word, and you are not someone who loves a good chase. Instead, you work your charms and draw people to you. Your ability to attract others is very much tied up with your ego because you tend to be quite attractive.

You are enterprising and have powerful stores of energy that you can draw upon when needed. You respond to problems or challenges with a spirited and enthusiastic confidence that is admirable. You are naturally competitive, and this trait is generally well-received by others simply because it is unforced, unaffected, and sincere. You truly believe in fair play, and you seem to be in love with life. When you are expressing competitiveness and courage, it’s easy for others to smile and accept these traits as positive ones rather than being rubbed the wrong way. You have good physical vitality. Although competitive, you are not naturally combative. You may enjoy sports or games that are competitive, but not violent. Breaking the rules of a competitive game is particularly upsetting to you. You are more able than most to control your desires, aggressions, and instincts. You know how to be fair, and you expect others to be fair. As such, sneaky behaviors, uncontrolled impulses, violence, and rage are offensive to you.

There is an unmistakably dreamy, inspired, and sensitive side to you. A marked appreciation for music and the arts is present. A sensitive and spiritual dimension is in your personality. You are naturally compassionate. It is so completely natural for you to accept that there is more to the world than what is before your eyes, that you tend to presume everyone must be spiritually-inclined. Of course, you come to realize that this is not the case at some early point in your life. Your attraction to spirituality and metaphysical subjects is usually marked. These aspects favor writers, artists, and musicians. You are sensitive to those who are suffering, although you are not usually taken advantage of. You are humanitarian and may have a special connection with animals. You are not one to dominate others or assert yourself to the point of brashness. You have a fertile imagination, are full of inspiration, and very emotional – all qualities that you may use on the professional level.

You have much sexual vitality and passion. It is easy and natural for you to find a passion and pursue it, and to focus on a goal. You are not much scared of anything. You enjoy and embrace growth, especially of the psychological kind. You love a good mystery, and you are adept at solving it. You readily assign meaning to what others might consider “ordinary” events. You look for symbols, and read between the lines in most any situation. Your physical vitality is generally strong, and your body is usually able to heal quickly. You are not afraid to get your hands dirty, and you are usually quick to help others–not only with mundane tasks, but also on a spiritual or psychological level. Your insight is sharp and sometimes awe-inspiring. You are perceptive and not easily rattled or surprised in life. You are not a do-gooder nor are you a law-breaker. However, you are not afraid of the “dark side” of human nature, and you will bend the rules from time to time if you feel the need to do so. You take particular pleasure in growth and life’s lessons. You are not fond of superficiality, and are generally the first to spot pretense of any kind. You are passionate and can be intense. You have a hunger to experience more than just an “ordinary” life, and you can be quite ambitious. You are perfectionists, demanding much from yourself and reasonable amounts of effort and honesty from others.

It is easy and natural for you to be received well by others. There is a distinct air of authority and magnanimity surrounding you. The authority you project generally doesn’t offend others, generally because sincerity is sensed at the same time. Most people would describe you as natural, easy to like, and friendly.

You are not necessarily outgoing. But when you feel comfortable, you do like being the center of attention. That is, you like being in the “spotlight” in the comfort of your own homes and with family and friends. You enjoy entertaining others, and often take on the role of comic. You often feel a need to organize, and even control, your families and friends. You have an inner mission to set things right and generally like to oversee the goings-on in your little circle.

You want to create and entertain. You can be rather lazy at times and a little bossy too. But generally, though, you have a deep need to treat others fairly and justly. You require lots and lots of love and care in order to function well in the world. When you feel slighted, you can be dramatic in your emotional displays. When your pride has been hurt, you are given to big scenes and sulking. This rarely happens in public, however. You are far too concerned about your image to make splashy scenes outside the comfort of your own homes. In public, you prefer to take things in dignified ways. At home, however, you’re given to big displays of emotional drama. These scenes generally don’t last too long, however. You are often personally popular folk who are valued for your integrity and strong sense of justice. So generally, it is easy to reason with you and to make you fine again. Appealing to your well-developed sense of fairness usually works well.

You are brave and know how to take risks, have the courage of your convictions, are honest, imposing and sharp. You have a great sense of, and respect for, justice, organizational sense, selectivity in friends, but is not overly influenced by them. You have a taste for splendor.

Weaknesses: Changing and being numerous affections, emotionally demanding and proud, and brooding when attention is not forthcoming.

You have an emotional need for recognition, popularity, acknowledgement, and achievement. You can be quite charismatic. You are at your emotional best when you lead a structured and responsible life, but it can take time to get there. You may change your goals and ambitions, and/or your profession frequently in an attempt to find the perfect fit. You may worry about living up to your image, or the expectations of your family. Decisions may be too emotionally biased, or you might act on emotional whims far too often. Learning to set your own heartfelt goals is the challenge here, as it is unlikely you will find true happiness if you follow or adopt the expectations of others, which you are especially sensitive to.

You can be precocious, animated, and passionate. You seek emotional excitement in your life. Although you often project a brave and tough image, your skin isn’t as thick as you’d have others believe. You tend to put up defenses due to your emotionally vulnerable and excitable disposition. Unrest is characteristic, as you are bored by routine and become easily frustrated when life is “too easy”. There’s a buzz of energy surrounding you, and you tend to meet with many conflicts in your life. With the opposition, the conflict tends to be lived through relationships. The passions are quite raw, especially in youth.

If you can channel your excitable energy into sports or some other competitive field, it’s all the better. Although you can be a decidedly amiable and interesting person, others always seem to sense your boundaries. Something is bound to get you worked up, and it’s not always clear what that something will be. Your bluntness can be both appreciated and considered offensive, depending on your audience! You are eager to make a personal impact on those around you. It is possible that you are too eager in this sense, and you come across as self-absorbed and difficult to stomach. Patience is definitely not your strong point! Your responses are quick, and you are a passionate person who is usually quite courageous although your energy is sporadic and sometimes wasted. You are sexually responsive.

You are very emotional and are driven to do things by your emotions. Sometimes you do not think things over or through in a certain situation. You are irascible and easily fired up. But you mostly control your feelings because you have a sense of duty, of self-esteem and are prudent. You can concentrate on a long-term task, manual or intellectual. You persevere and are serious in everything you do.

You have intense emotions and passionate feelings. Your love life or marital life may be riddled with emotional scenes, jealousy, and possessiveness from your partner because you attract intense partners.

You are unhappily influenced by the family. You are probably loved insufficiently by your father, but on the contrary received more love from your mother. So you are susceptible, have superficial sensitivity and are sometimes irascible.

You are enthusiastic, humorous, and sometimes moralistic. You have strong opinions, and often shares them! You are a democrat, philosopher, tolerant, and respectful of laws. You are interested in foreign places and learning more languages. You always believe that everything teaches you something.

Your intelligence is geared towards ways of making money, becoming rich. You have a very practical mind and intelligence, seeing the obvious, most logical answer to any predicament often before others. You don’t like to be put on the spot or pushed into talking or coming to a conclusion. Studies are similar–you need to work at your own steady pace. You can be quite one-track minded at times, not very happy with multi-tasking, and often quite fixed in your opinions. Sensual stimuli are more relevant to you than abstract concepts.

You are intelligent, have big ideas. You are also tolerant and have a strong sense of justice. You have good judgment, good sense, and have your feet on the ground. You have the “gift of the gab”, and like to speak, you also like literature. You are erudite and will normally be successful socially.

You are perspicacious, ingenious: You bind intelligence and originality together with genius. You like literature. You are spontaneous in your friendships and know how to handle the situations that arise.

You have interest for emotions and values, exchange and sharing with others.
You will try to win your lover’s heart by displaying self-control, presence of mind, and responsible behavior. You want your lover to know you are a goal-oriented, witty, savvy, and controlled. Nobody can get the best of you. You want your lover to see just how competent you are. You like some measure of predictability in your relationships as you are cautious in love.

You project an aura of competency and your loner-like behavior can be attractive, in a cool way. You don’t go gaa-gaa over love, or at least you don’t express as much. Your lover may complain you are a little too practical and deliberate. Certainly, you can come across as lacking in warmth and spontaneity. But truth is, you just appear to be that way on the surface during the first phase of relationship. While after, you can be rather a romantic soul who yearn for a partner to share your life with. You are conservative and willing to commit. So you are attracted to serious, goal-oriented lover. You are a little shy in matters of the heart, but you don’t want your lover to know it. If your lover wants to know where your relationship is headed, he will be mighty pleased with you because you plan ahead in love, and, you will let him know exactly where your relationship is headed. You are practical and realistic. You want to impress your lover with the things you do. Your lover needs to appreciate this “saving for a rainy day” attitude of yours, and be aware that you want to show it in a quiet way.

Tangible expressions of love and affection are important to you. Your tastes are usually “simply extravagant”, well-defined, strong, and something you are proud of. Some might feel you have a talent for finding items of value and good taste. You are attracted to items of quality. You may use generosity for your own benefit–in other words, you might give gifts with expectation of reward. Your neck and upper chest are erogenous zones, and your voice is unusually attractive. You generally don’t jump into a new relationship. If you do, your feelings grow gradually. A partner who makes you feel safe and secure is ideal for you. Once committed, your love is long lasting and sincere. You are faithful for life and have strong values so others will find it hard to sway you in this area. Sensual, the world of touch and smell is most appealing to you. Complex or mysterious partner is not as intriguing to you as a simple and genuine one.

Your professional life is unstable. You have a taste for the arts, are a dreamer, easily influenced, and romantic. You are emotional and very sensitive.

Romantic, creative, gentle, and adaptable, you naturally express the finer qualities of mysterious and dreamy in your love relationships. Your imagination is rich and your fantasy world well-developed. You are turned off by rudeness and crudeness, and are drawn to beauty in its many forms. You are very giving and generous, but may be a little on the submissive side, or sometimes downright lazy, failing to take the initiative when situations call for it.

Your emotion and sex life is powerful and rich. You live out truly passionate love.

You love to challenge yourself to do the impossible. You throw yourself into what you decide to do with concentrated energy and awesome willpower. You make formidable opponents, although often quietly so. You keep your cool and your equilibrium on the surface. But below the surface may be another story, and you are unlikely to easily let people in. You have the potential to exploit others–you see through others, and rely heavily on your gut feelings. Your sexual stamina is thought to be the strongest of all. Sometimes, you are attracted to taboos, and your fantasies may involve blowing the taboos to smithereens! You enjoy scenarios in which the “other” is giving in to you, wants you completely, and will do absolutely anything for you. And, your sexual appeal is strong enough that you generally do get what you want.

You find it difficult to share your partner. You have a black-or-white philosophy of life. You are the people who say, “Just choose!” You really are not comfortable with compromise–what kind of satisfaction could you possibly get from compromise? So your partner should really be committed to you only and you could be coolly walk away without drama when your partner is not so into you.

Real living is all about accepting challenges and making changes. You constantly test yourself, and, often, others. You make all kinds of rules and goals, just for the personal satisfaction that comes from achieving or mastering them. Your survival instincts are strong, and you embrace your own animal nature when you are all alone with yourself, without guilt.

You have a provocative quality to you. This quality is usually most evident in youth, though it is often carried over into adulthood in more subtle, controlled ways. You sometimes have low self-esteem and can become mighty twisted. Instead of beating yourself up, you turn self-loathing outward, and end up manipulating others and feeling resentful. While you are constantly striving to bring fairness to the world, you sometimes know that life simply isn’t fair.

All your energy is put into the work life. You love research. So you could be a lab worker, doctor, police officer, teacher, and specializing in hospital, or hospice work.

You are ambitious, have a great capacity for work, have self-confidence and go to the end of your plans.

You represent expansion and grace. You attract the most good-fortune when you are tolerant and fair, inventive, impartial, and cooperative. You value people and personal freedom most. You want to show unique perspective or skills. You are open to new methods and progress. You have great tolerance and humanitarianism.

You like and believe in justice. You are an optimist and are generous. Professional success is rapid and should be supported by the family you build. Family life is very important for you. You like comfort and well-being at home. You know how to entertain in style and above all with pleasure.

You know what’s going on at a glance. You thirst after knowledge and are a good organizer. You are very independent, like your freedom of action, are a non-conformist. You are a very agreeable company to others and are always in demand or sought after.

You have your own way of thinking about a subject and have your own ideas about things. You respect society and its rules guide your conduct.

Weaknesses: hard, unforgiving, rigorous, and sometimes inhuman when your code of conduct is violated.

You can be self-conscious in new situations, especially when young. Your manner is somewhat cautious and guarded. First reactions to new ideas or plans are reticent and somewhat negative, but these are only first reactions. You can be methodical, patient, somewhat distrustful, but polite. You speak little at first and do not waste energy unnecessarily. You have a good memory and sense of organization, like to do things well. You are never slapdash and have a strong sense of responsibility.

You are shy, delicate but proud, bold and lively.

You have a lot of flair. You can do many things well. So you could be unreliable at work sometimes, especially when the work doesn’t fulfill your sense of contentment because you’re always ready for change. You must have an out-of-the-ordinary job you love, in which case all goes well. Otherwise, you will often change jobs to search for the ideal job you want.

You have transcendental liberty, a non-egoistic liberty. You are discerning, wise and sensible.

You prefer not to attach too much value on money, but if this is overdone, there can be quite a few problems in life concerning money and ownership. You might make money through artistic pursuits, but must avoid the potential pitfalls of putting too much faith in ideas that don’t have enough grounding in reality.

You have a lot of presence. There is something about you that tells the world that you are not the type to be pushed around. Your manner commands respect, and in some cases, fear. You can be quiet or loud, but you always seem powerful and determined. People either love or hate you. You rarely go through life unnoticed. In fact, you are confused when faced with the fact that you get such strong reactions from others. You seem to look right through people, seeing through superficiality. This can be quite intimidating to some, and intriguing to others. You, in dealing with others, look for answers by reading between the lines. Surface details are discarded when you are getting a feel for people and situations around you.

You value your privacy so much, it can border on paranoia. You have a strong need to control your environment and are expert at strategy. You rarely will blow your chances with impatience, as you plan out your moves carefully and deliberately, relying on your awesome ability to feel out others and situations. You are drawn to down-to-earth, natural partners. Reliability in your partner is very important. You generally look for complete commitment and have little patience with flighty partners.

Nothing is left to chance, everything is calculated, dissected slowly and methodically, twice rather than once, in peace and quiet by yourself. You are introverted, and don’t speak about your plans until they are underway.

You leaved the family home reasonably young. So you like liberty, want a life that is out-of-the-ordinary, and certainly one that does not correspond with mum and dad’s.

You are full of tenderness and sentimentality.

You have ability to command, know how to take up your responsibilities at work. Weak point: you are prone to headaches, or fevers.

Your learning shapes your identity.

You have fertile imagination. You are easily influenced. You like travel.

All the leadership qualities are in you: authority, sense of organization, initiative, and intelligence. You are a fighter.

You search for social and intellectual security.

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How Can Everyone Be Happy? 24/12/2017

Filed under: Various Informations — hifni1985 @ 8:44 pm
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What is happiness?
In philosophy, happiness translates the Greek concept of eudaimonia, and refers to the good life, or flourishing, rather than simply an emotion.
In psychology, happiness is a mental or emotional state of well-being which can be defined by, among others, positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy. Happy mental states may reflect judgements by a person about their overall well-being. -wikipedia

Everyone has different views of happiness, different things of what can make them happy, different ways of how to make them happy.
But I can ensure one thing, everyone wants to be happy.
What it is about happiness that it is so important to everyone.


How can everyone be happy?


If you ask this question to yourself, you might want to take a look on few articles of how everyone pursues their happiness.
Although it’s different to everyone, maybe you could get an inspiration for your own happiness.


How to Be Happy (A very good article)

45 Ways to be Happier Instantly

How to Be Happy: The Complete Guide

How to Be Happy Tips

10 Ways to be Happier

How to Be Happy


Please remember that,
When there’s sadness, there’s happiness.
There’s nothing eternal in this world.
Happiness doesn’t last, but so does sadness.
Everything is going to be okay.
So never lose hope.


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My Enneagram Type 23/12/2017

Filed under: Personality — hifni1985 @ 2:50 pm
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I took Enneagram Test here


and the result is there are three types with the highest scores: type 1, type 5, and type 9.


Description of type 1


Description of type 5


Description of type 9


Mom’s Smile is My First Motivation 22/12/2017

I remembered when I was a kid; I was someone who was eager to learn. Being a curious child, I came to my brother’s school every day and stood by the door to look at the teacher’s teaching the lesson. I wanted to study as well but my age at that time had not reached school age, yet.


Few months after that, I started schooling 6 months faster because my parents asked the school’s principal whether I could start school faster since my interest to study was already quite strong. I love studying just for the sake of the knowledge that I got to know. But still it never crossed my mind I wanted to reach first rank at school. It was then until I reached 4th grade of elementary school, one day I was called to the teacher’s office. I was a bit worried and was wondering why they called me. I recalled that I didn’t do anything wrong, that was what I thought to myself. It turned out that they wanted me to hand in a standard student picture of me to be put on a certificate, because I got first rank in class. I was surprised. That was the first time it happened. Though I remembered I didn’t particularly feel overly happy or anything, just felt surprise. I didn’t even tell my mom about it until the day our report book was given to us and I came back to my house and told my mom that I got first rank in class and showed her the certificate.


At that time, it was still clear on my mind how my mom smiled beautifully and happiness was seen throughout her face. That’s when I suddenly felt something different in my heart. I realized that me getting first rank at class could make my mom so happy and bring smile to her face. So my heart felt soothing. I was happy to see my mom happy. It was what motivated me to study harder in oder to achieve first rank in class for the next and following terms also. I wanted to make my mom happy again and again.


It’s not the achievement but how the achievement could make my mom happy is the real achievement to me.



Happy Mother’s Day, Mom!

Mom will always be my inspiration.

I always keep our sweet memories in my heart.

May Allah Always Shelter Mom in The Blessings of True Happiness.




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