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My Personality Profile 18/09/2017

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Entrepreneurial and progressive, you are ever-striving, heading for the top, and enjoying an enterprising, ambitious and determined personality to do things well, and an unyielding dedication to your plan until the goals are achieved.
 
You bounce back easily from setbacks and can overcome any adversities or obstacles thrown in your way.
 
You make a good performer, but at the same time she can be quite intense and serious.
 
Your artistic talent is emphasized in the performing arts where sensitivity and understanding for people and situations is called for.
 
You can easily gain high respect in the community, being understanding of the views of others, and you often tend to achieve your goals.
 
When balanced, you are compassionate and emotionally secure. You are also a natural healer, with leadership qualities and the ability to genuinely empathize. You also radiate love and spiritual happiness to those around you.
 
By becoming aware of your emotions, you can gain control over them rather than have your emotions control your life. And the reward is great because then you show vast depth of understanding while keeping your emotions checked.
 
You were born with extra-ordinary drive and determination. You are a born leader. You insist on your right to make up your own mind; you demands freedom of thought and action, and do not let anything or anyone stand in your way once you are committed to your goal.
 
You assume the responsibility to be the protector and provider for those you love. You demand respect and attention and become irritated and even domineering when important things do not go your way.
 
You are exceptionally creative and original and possess a touch of the unusual. Your approach to problems is unique and you have the courage to wander from the beaten path or the traditional templates of thoughts and deeds. You can be impatient with your shortcomings and those of others.
 
Sometimes you are concerned with your status and foster the appearance of success and self-satisfaction. The need to appear well off propels you to strive for growth, success and the finer things of life.
 
You perform best when you left to your own devices. Ideally you should own your own business and be your own boss. You should hold fast to your life’s dream and work with the determination you possess to realize it. You can become overly stressed by your driven nature. You need to be careful about the food you eat and maintain an exercise program you enjoy. Competition sports are often a healthy outlet for a person with your drive, particularly sports involving running and swimming.
 
More often than not a person like you will achieve much in life as long as the drive, creativity, originality and pioneering spirit are fully employed!
 
You are highly intuitive and creative. Your mind think in pictures. You seem to draw information and ideas from out of the sky.
 
Your intuition is your gift, along with a powerful drive to know the Oneness of all things. You are so driven by spiritual pursuits that no matter what you do in life, the world of spirit and philosophy will be central to your daily behavior. You feel linked with the larger universal forces, and nothing will change that.
 
You have a fine mind and keen insights, but these do not come as a result of logic or rational thought. You are more likely to direct your life by inspiration, rather than by calculated reflections.
 
On some level, you know that you are in the hands of destiny, and that you must surrender to the higher powers that shape your life. You are usually a late bloomer. Your early and middle 30s tend to be years spent in apprenticeship and slow development. During this period, you can become frustrated with your progress, or the apparent lack of it.
 
You need to develop faith. You are a highly charged person with much to do, but you must develop character and sound judgment before you begin to tap your true potential. Just as a tree needs roots to grow tall, so need you to develop depth of character in order to begin to expand in the ways you desire and ultimately envision.
 
Your highly developed intuition makes you a wonderful counselor, healer, or health practitioner. You have a gift for inspiring people. Many people admire you without you knowing it. You are a visionary, and others sense your wisdom.
 
You are acutely sensitive and easily influenced by your surroundings. You love beauty and harmony. You also crave social interaction and much attention. You can be very emotional, often experiencing extremes of happiness and sadness. You are usually too easily hurt. You also get depressed easily and feel the lack of confidence during times you are in a dark mood.
 
Despite your sensitivity, you possess leadership abilities. You are modest, diplomatic and polite. You have also the ability to persuade, and can be quite forceful.
 
Your high sensitivity to others makes you compassionate, kind, and gentle. You have an opportunity for fame and success as long as you do not pursue either as your gods. You need to look for ways to help others and convey a larger message, with which you were blessed. This will bring you the material and social fruits you desire.
 
You are a free spirit. You love change, adventure, and excitement. You love your freedom. Like a bird that needs its wings to live, you cannot exist without it. Freedom is the nucleus around which your life revolves. You need it for your very survival. By using freedom properly, you are able to explore and develop all of your varied talents. You will meet many types of people and travel great distances. Freedom is the atmosphere necessary for you to bring forth your many talents.
 
You are capable of doing almost anything, and probably quite well. Only by avoiding the imprisonment of illusory security are you able to bring forth your abilities.
 
You are unusually adaptable. In fact, change is a blessing for you. In the same way, you needs challenge and variety. You hate the routine of life; being stuck is a catastrophe for you. You become miserable when you are held back or held down.
 
The taste and texture and color of life have an overpowering allure for you. From childhood, you dream of seeing foreign lands, experiencing the sensual and the exotic. You want to try everything at least once in life. All of life is a playground for your senses.
 
But this can get you into trouble. You may fail to respect your natural limits, either biologically or socially. Any sort of boundary is anathema to you, which can blind you to your natural limits.
 
You are gifted in your ability to communicate. Your facility with words is almost limitless. You can be a salesman, politician, lawyer, public relations person, and minister. You also possess the talent to share and advance new ideas. You are talented with your hands. You love the new and untried. Your field is the frontier. You are a bit of a gambler, and often plays for very high stakes. All of this combines to give you a youthful enthusiasm, which others find infectious and attractive.
 
You like to work with others, but needs to perform your task un-encumbered by the restraints of others.
You are a clever and a quick thinker, but your thought processes – like your life in general – can be unorganized and scattered. You must stay grounded and focused if you want to be successful.
 
Self-discipline and setting healthy limits is the key to your success in virtually every area of your life. Ironically, you will find that as you learn to set appropriate limits on yourself, you will develop more self-mastery and realize even greater freedom.
 
This is especially true when it comes to finishing what you start. Your tendency is to give up once you have got a project or job under control because you grow bored quickly. You start to fantasize about a new challenge, or the rewards of your great accomplishment, long before the work is finished.
 
You desire the whole world. You are aware that you have many talents that can bring much success. But that success depends on your willingness to choose certain areas to concentrate on, and to bring them to perfection.
 
You want peace and harmony in all aspects of your life. You want to devote your life to someone or something. You fall in love easily. You are extremely sensitive and emotional. You can be sentimental and you cry at sad stories. You need friends and society.
 
You appreciate the refinements of life. You desire comfort and security. You have also refined taste, and can be a connoisseur. You love music and possess a good deal of musical talent.
 
Your sensitivity is actually a symptom of your highly developed intuition, but you must learn to trust it. You are a gentle soul and you shy away from confrontation as long as possible. You experience a battle within when you do not believe you can handle a situation; this may have a paralyzing effect on you.
 
Sometimes you prefer to give in when you should assert yourself. You must learn to be more decisive. Very often, you are afraid to use your own power in the face of someone else’s aggressiveness. You incorrectly perceive yourself to be in a weaker position; You may ultimately give in merely to avoid a fight.
 
Conversely, you are extremely diplomatic and tactful. You like to accomplish things through quiet persuasion. You dislike force.
 
At times, you have to fight uncertainty and doubt. You need to develop confidence and a willingness to stand up for what you believes to be right.
 
You need to feel in command of important undertakings, and resists supportive roles. You seek the forefront and the limelight.
In contrast, you can also function best in a supportive role, guiding the more public person in quiet, unobtrusive, yet essential ways.
 
You appear strong and powerful. You have an impressive personality and can influence and even intimidate through sheer force. You have natural authority. Your competence and enthusiasm attract people with resources.
You radiate confidence. People defer to you because they sense your sureness and effectiveness. You also exudes a kind of controlled benevolence. People sense that you are generous, once you are convinced of the worthiness of the cause.
 
It is important for you to dress well. You radiate a kind of raw power and able-ness, which needs to be refined and enhanced by your clothing. You may even dress a bit flashy, because that will not harm you. Quality is among your highest priorities, and should reflect in your clothing.
 
You can be prone to indigestion, ulcers, and heart disease due to your reckless eating and your propensity to be workaholics.
 
Your Achilles heel is your capacity for an egocentric attitude. The negative side of your personality can cause you to be ruthless, greedy, and intensely lonely.
 
Conversely, you can be spontaneous and excited. You are essentially warm and jovial. In your heart of hearts, you want everyone to be as excited and as happy as you. Those who are around you often sense this, and your coworkers and other employees usually like you.
 
Throughout your life you will be concerned with the welfare of others. You will make your home the focus of your life, and fill your world with as much beauty as possible. In your later years you will find yourself surrounded by friends and family. This will ensure your joy and contentment.
 
As you mature, you will become increasingly concerned with the well-being of family, friends, and community. You will be drawn to the role as healer, counselor, and teacher – due to your growing ability to give comfort and sound advice to those in need.
 
You naturally assume the role of patriarch or matriarch of those in your care, no matter how old they are. You become more responsible and protective, and you may well become involved in environmental protection, volunteer work or politics.
 
You are naturally idealistic and strive to realize those ideals as you grow in maturity and in personal resources.
Your careful and balanced approach to business and financial matters provide you with sound and secure success later in life.
This provides an outstanding financial foundation for the future.
 
In addition, this promises an old age surrounded by loved ones. You could eventually have the close relationships that you have strived for most of your life.
 
Facing some issues, you retreat into some safe haven within yourself and hope you will not have to deal with the issue at hand. Yet, the clarity and analytical abilities of your mind are sufficient to provide you with insight into the problem, and a clear path to its solution.
 
You have to work at confronting yourself and the issues you face unemotionally and calmly. You can be engulfed in the emotional aspects of the issue, which clouds your mind and prevent you from using your clarity to find an answer.
But once you get past the emotion you will find an answer by yourself.
 
You will have luck in matters involving risk and new ventures. It will shine for you in times of change and even chaos and upheaval.
You will also have an edge when connected to matters of romance.
 
 
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The Many Facets of Me 14/04/2017

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There are many conflicting sides of me.
I am diligent and lazy,
talkative and quiet,
organized and messy,
both logical and emotional,
caring yet ignoring,
smart but foolish,
strong but weak,
clean but dirty,
bold and shy,
both confident and doubtful in myself.
have both feminine and masculine traits,
independent but want to depend on someone,
thoughtful but sometimes unsympathetic,
could not hate but sometimes full of hatred,
forgiving but holding grudge,
adventurous yet Scaredy-cat,
sometimes rarely worried, sometimes full of worries,
sometimes kind, sometimes not,
have strong memory but sometimes forgetful,
full of suspicions but try to believe in goodness of others,
full of interests but sometimes not having interest in anything,
difficult to be approached but sometimes have an open mind to accept,
both visual and auditory,
right brained and left brained,
etc…
(I could list these all years)
 
That’s why I love to learn about myself.
 
I am like a Rubik’s cube with no matching color.
So you can’t solve me.
 
And it could take forever to know me.
Because even I always find something new about myself.
 
People always try to label someone else, but I often found a little bit of myself in someone else.
 
Even when I do a personality quiz or psychology, no analysis could be 100% correct, and I could relate to some points on other results. Choosing choices in those quizzes sometimes was not easy because there could me more than one options I could relate to or sometimes there was none but I had to choose one.
 
There are too many facets of me.
But oh well, like a gemstone, the many facets could increase its value.
So there’s no need to feel discourage.
 

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How I Became Independent 04/03/2017

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I am not independent by choice.
Fate led me to be independent.
But it’s true that originally, I am a person who has a hard time asking for help so I’d rather do everything by myself first.
But back then, I used to have my mom who always help me go strong.
She gave me strength to go through a lot of things.
She was also the one I can always rely on.
But then, God had another plan for us to separate.
My mom passed away…

At that time, it seemed like the whole world was crashing down on me.
And soon after I got to know how scary the world is.
Since my mom who used to protect me was no longer beside me.
I had no one to rely on, but I kept carrying on.
I greeted my teeth and swore to myself that I won’t ask for help from those, the families who kept their hands in their pockets instead of reaching out of hands for me to hold.
So I kept that promise and along the way I became an independent woman.

Now, I have all the benefits from being independent.
Nobody in the family can order me on what or what not to do.
They have no say in the path I choose for myself.
Therefore I no longer hate them.
Because I realize that it is partly thanks to them, I get to live how I want.

Being Independent is a bliss.
 
 

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Once Before… 01/03/2017

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Once before…
1. I was belittled because I was poor.
2. I was sneered at because my lack sense of fashion.
3. I was pitied because I always seem to do things alone.
4. I was misunderstood because I think and do things differently.
5. I was avoided because they find me hard to get along to.
6. I was hated because I defy their ways of thinking.
7. I was abandoned yet I don’t know why.
 
 
But behind all that,
1. I never think wealth is something you use to measure someone’s worth.
2. I never dress to impress someone, I only use what’s comfortable or available for me. The good thing is it saves some money.
3. It takes courage to do things alone and not everyone is able to do that.
4. I am different, I have my own way of things and I stood by my conviction.
5. It was hard also for me to get along and It used to make me sad but now I know everything has its own time and reason, it might not work for now but it might change latter, or it might not work at all but it doesn’t really matter.
6. I don’t force my way of thinking to anyone so why must they force their ways of thinking to me.
7. It hurts me to think that maybe I’m not good enough that’s why it happens but now I realize that they just love themselves more and I should do the same. I just need to stand tall, stop trying, and move on.
 
 

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The Advocate: A Missing Body – Korean Movie 2015 [Eng Sub] 28/02/2017


 

At first, I just wanted to watch investigation movie, but was not so expectant since I didn’t quite like A Hard Day, the main actor’s previous movie. But this movie is a gem. The story is solid and nothing foolish, combined with strong acting by the actors and a plot twist so it made none of the scene felt boring or useless. I recommend this movie.

 

Cast :

Lee Sun-kyun as Byeon Ho-sung

Kim Go-eun as Jin Sun-min

Im Won-hee as Office manager Park

Jang Hyun-sung as Moon Ji-hoon

 

Summary :

Byeon Ho-sung is a hotshot lawyer at a big law firm; with a nearly 100% win rate, his life motto is “Winning is justice, and I am the winner.” After Byeon wins a lawsuit for a large conglomerate pharmaceutical company, its chairman Moon Ji-hoon asks him to defend Moon’s chauffeur Kim Jeong-hwan, who is suspected to have murdered a female college student named Han Min-jeong. A pool of blood was found at the crime scene where Kim was apprehended, but a body has not been found and there are no witnesses.

Kim insists that he and the victim were dating, but passionate rookie prosecutor Jin Sun-min believes that he was stalking Han. Just when Byeon is close to successfully contradicting Jin’s claims and winning the case as he always does, his client abruptly confesses in court on the last day of the trial that he killed Han. Furious at his humiliation and even accused of tampering with evidence, Byeon uncharacteristically embarks on a search for the truth and teams up with Jin. But as he digs deeper, Byeon begins to uncover clues that may link the case back to Moon.

 

Watch the movie: The Advocate: A Missing Body

 

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Thank You, Friends! 18/02/2017

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For me, a friend is still a friend even though we rarely talk to each other or haven’t met for years. It’s not quantity but quality of the relationship that matters to me. The friends that I hold dear to my heart, even though years have passed, they will still occupy that place in my heart.

As I’m pretty much a private person, I know it’s not easy to get close to me in the first place. Many have even feel scared of me and knowing that I’m a hard to approach person, choose to stay away from me altogether. They are not wrong. It’s their choice.

But some people came to me knowing that and try harder until I warm up to them and we get to know each other pretty well. I really appreciate them for that.

Some even said to me that they have misunderstood me from my first impression and now as they get to know me, I’m nothing like they thought of me at first.

I, have no control over what people think of me, but I stay true to my nature. I don’t change just to get people to like me. And so, people who like me, like me for who I am, both in weakness or strength.

So for those of you who have become my friends, I would like to say thank you.

Let our friendship flourish, even as time passes by.
 
 

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Seeking a Soulmate in Marriage 17/02/2017

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I seek a soulmate in marriage, a life long partner, a friend, a lover, someone I can have deep conversation with. Together we’re understanding and accepting, with genuine care for each other.

So I take my time and do not rush a marriage.
As I’m still single now, isn’t that simply mean I just haven’t found the one?
I believe in destiny, everything will happen in the right place and time.

I don’t have a distinct criteria, and maybe “he” we don’t know who, also don’t set a criteria, so it takes more time for us to recognize each other.

“People will get scared if you still pursue higher education.”
I’m not superficial, I don’t put a materialized criteria, like social status, money, car, job, education level, etc for my husband-to-be.

While education for me is just like a hobby. It’s not something to determine someone’s better or worse, and it should never be used for that. It’s just how some societies think. But I always believe everyone is equal.

“You’re already past 30. Women should get married already at that age.”
Still I won’t be rushing. What good will come out of it?

And,
Asking me now when I will get married won’t change anything since I don’t have a partner, yet.
Asking me to open my mind, well, I’m actually a very open minded person if you get to know me.
Asking me to open my heart, I’m sorry, my heart is not a free way pass. I’ll share my heart only with the one I love.

Still I appreciate the concern.

But don’t worry, I’m learning to be happy by myself, and when I found the one I get to love sooner or later, we’ll be even happier together.
 

Smile 

 
 

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