The concept what goes around comes around is indeed happening.
It’s just that for me, I breathe around it.
I know I’ve said this before, but since I was a child, every time I made a mistake, the payback always happened not long after.
I never usually cheated on a test, but once I tried to cheat on one test in elementary school grade 4, I got caught and apologized to my teacher.
Whenever I’m late coming to school during my middle school, I could never avoid the punishment picking up the garbage (while some of my friends manage to avoid it).
I tried to scheme something once to avoid a penalty in a library, but I got caught anyway, paid the penalty, and apologized.
Once I lied to my aunt because I hate doing this one thing that she ask a favor frequently, but got caught and scolded then apologized to her.
I hardly ever skip school or lesson, but I did it once (to go somewhere with my friends) and I got caught and scolded (while my friends who were with me got off just fine), I apologized and was so embarrassed and sad because of it.
All these my first try of bad demeanor, always fail and makes me suffer embarrassment and apologize for it.
That’s why I never bother to do it again. If I do bad things, I’m always ready to face the consequences.
I never avoid apologizing. I always apologize when I make a mistake because that’s what my mom taught me: Principal of Sorry, Thank You, and Please. It’s just that this lesson made my conviction stronger that I should never bother to avoid the punishment. Or even better, I should never do that mistake again (for some things that’s in my power).
So I never bother to cheat on test and just accept my score as it is.
If I’m late, I would just accept the consequences, whether it’s the scolding or the pay cut.
I returned books I borrowed on time or just pay how much the penalty when I returned them late.
And I would just say no when I don’t like to do a favor people ask of me.
And also it goes to say, when something bad happens to me, I always think of “whether there was something bad I did recently?” That kind of mindset.
Now that makes me think, my life sucks lately, could it be that “all this while”, I am in the middle of paying the consequences of all the things that I did wrong before.
Well, maybe this is all my fault.
(Posted some thoughts about this in facebook on August 17, 2016 at 17:18)
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